Bwa thanks guys! I was so unsure about this one.
Posted 2 weeks ago
Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.
Louise Erdrich (via girlwithoutwings)
(Source: quote-book)
Posted 1 month ago
It’s great to be back in my own room.
The night was horrible but process was fine. Pain in left arm but one second then, boom. They said I handled it better than most all. Not exhausted or “delusional”. And my mood is alright!
Linzey and Kathrine are wonderful people. And to top it?
Linzey opened a tattoo shop years ago and he is hooking me up; a major key that am a tad more than excited.
Call received. We got into the psychology (of course) about acting, happenings with people out there, 80’s Terms of Endearment, his two guitar gigs weekly, an eccentric midget he sat and watched, riding with a miniature bike, + other occurances. I was so happy&content being on the phone in such a different way. More…honest, and Chris and I have such a bond already (Maybe that’s the first sign of progress..)
We’re about to head to Ronny’s. said he got a gift from Sedona although he already helped out enough this week; but anyway, it will be good to catch up with him and Shannon. +Speaking of last week, I bonded with my niece in no way before. Like we held our bond; finally embraced. :Seems to be relearning our place’
(Source: fatzliqour)
Posted 1 month ago
PLEASE. Please please please. I ask a Huge favor to all of my followers & would like all points of view!
What do you think? Mostly on the characters and how they do acting-wise. [and most importantly onMarie’s frustrated husband/bf/whatevs (the one who goes a little whacked at the end)]
Or anything else you’d like to share on this short clip for that matter! Messaging works or a reply <3
It would mean so much for me.
Posted 3 months ago
2/24/2012
She stayed warm for hours.
I ______ holding onto her corpse. It was the ______ goodbye I’ve given. We even cut her cake..must be interesting to be born and die on the same day.
I feel odd.
Posted 3 months ago
Back.
I am going to begin this blog again. To remember.
To re-mem-ber.
So here’s what’s up.
I’m out of Manhattan and now in Chicago; but not happy where I am.
I suppose it’s safe to say I foolishly let pure emotion lead me back to this town but I have learned.
Untenable, self-absorbed souls aren’t the best compatibility.
In March I will undergo some treatments that may impair my memory. I’m overjoyed at the idea of this becoming better but the memory thing is getting to me a bit. I hope my friends and family will be there to keep me updated. I pray that most of my memories that are erased will be of Fall.
I still have my apache. And my hair’s totally going Mia Farrow on me. And it’s nice to have Portillos again. And….well… this is going to be another new chapter. My life is a series of them. Crazy and dramatic chapters.
Can’t really say I’ve been leading a boring life.
Posted 3 months ago
I wish I could remember who took this photo. if anyone knows, I’ll give credit.
Posted 8 months ago
Reiki treatments & individual therapy sessions both twice a week.
The body and mind are incredibly weak right now but one can only work towards health after being here so many times and for so long.
I will thrive, like always.
A blog to capture the days.
